Losing It.

I'm currently sitting at my computer listening to Laurie Berkner:

Yeah. I'm a mom, what can I say?

It's funny, because one of her songs is called "I'm not perfect"...

I'm not perfect.
No, I'm not.
I'm not perfect
But I've got what I've got.
I do my very best.
Do my very best.
Do my very best each day
But I'm not perfect
And I hope you like me that way...

I love that these are the kinds of things my kids are learning by listening to her. It's so true. I'm not perfect. I'm working to improve myself. And that's really what I want this blog to be about... I want to look better, but mostly because I like the way I FEEL when I'm at my goal weight. (Okay, close to it - I don't know the last time I actually WAS at my goal - but I was within five pounds... and that felt GOOOOD.)

I like to feel strong and healthy... and that's why I'm doing this.

I didn't start off my day well. I went to Weight Watchers, so I didn't eat before I left the house... I think I've hardly eaten anything today and I have to be honest, at this moment, I feel so nauseous, I'm wondering if maybe I'm coming down with something. It's that kind of feeling - that - I need to stay close to the bathroom - feeling.

ugh.

Anyway. I am so glad to be back at Weight Watchers. I just feel better having gone to the meeting. I think it was a good choice get signed back up. I'm a paper person (thus, the scrapbooking) and so I spent most of the afternoon reading all the booklets they give you the first day. I am loving it. I feel back on track more than ever.

A good day... but I still have like, 20 points left. argh.

I do NOT feel like eating.

I'll see if a little rest on the couch helps.

The beginning...

Well. It's been about four weeks, but this is still pretty close to what I look like:

Yeah. I've decided to create a completely different blog for this weight loss mess because I want to keep it all separate from the daily ramblings, the scrapbooking, the kids... that sort of thing. So people who have no interest or need to read about someone else's weight loss journey can bypass it all a little easier.  I plan to share recipes that I've tried and talk about motivation and struggles and all that stuff that goes along with a journey like this. Rants. Pet peeves. The usual.

Looking at this picture as I type, I can't help but really be proud of my body. I mean, heck, it's been through a lot, right? Why don't we ever give credit to the miracle that is the human body? I mean - God made it all to work perfectly - and birthing another human body is no small feat. Sad thing is, it's no small belly I've got left either. grr.

I am officially starting WW tomorrow. I've been doing it on my own with absolutely no success. I mean, I went down a jeans size since this photo was taken about a month ago, but seriously - the scale is at a standstill. I am thinking I'll take a photo on the first of every month. The comparison will do me good.

Today I made a big old pot of vegetable soup. I needed to let it cook longer (which it is currently doing) before I ate some, but it's so good and sooo low in points! I love it! I also made that apple cobbler that's supposed to be pear cobbler that I love. I put a small 'dollop' of lite cool whip on mine. Yum.

And so concludes the first real post of this new blog. I'm excited. Tomorrow, I'll let ya know how the Weigh in goes, though I still doubt I can actually POST those god-awful numbers for all the virtual world to see. Trust me, I'll let you know once it's all gone where I started out at!

Happy weight-watching!

this is just a test.

I'm trying to think of a way to organize my thoughts. They seem to overlap a little bit, and I do seem oddly obsessed with the whole weight loss thing, but I think I need a separate blog specifically for this little journey I'm on. Doesn't that sound fun? Sounds bearable when you call it a 'little journey.'

After looking through other blogs, I've realized there has to be lots of photos in this 'little journey' blog and I've decided to call it "Losing it" because half the time I feel like I am... and half the time I wish I was.

So here's the test post... let's see if it works.

:)