Easy this isn't.

I know I talked about sabotage the last time I posted - and I swore I wasn't going to do it, but well, I sort of did it. Not on purpose, it's just been the way things have gone this week. I weighed in Thursday and was down another 1.6 pounds. That's 13 pounds total! I was pretty excited. And then my real week started. We had a women's conference at the church which meant lots of really fattening food and chocolate. I managed to stay away from most of it, but not knowing exactly how many points I used is REALLY hard for me and throws off the rest of my day - or in this case, two days.

Then I realized I was nauseous just about every day and have been for about six days. This nausea is accompanied by a dull headache that will not let up. I've had it for literally seven days. I am STRESSED out right now - so it very well could be the fact that I clench my jaw when I sleep. I woke up two of the days and my jaw HURT so badly. It could be the lack of water I've been drinking. It could be the lack of sleep since Ethan has also been sick (we're going to the doctor this morning.) It could be the aching in my neck muscles - still bugging me after having Sam. It could be a number of things. Whatever it is, it set me off.

I think I've been nauseous because when there's not 'good' food in the house, I tend to just not eat. I'll eat like, an apple all day or something. This is horrible because then I get nauseous and then I feel like I need to eat to get rid of the nausea. It's a circle. It's been a really terrible week for me. So terrible that I think I'm going to avoid the scale this morning and just concentrate on following my plan exactly for next week. I am not saying you should just not weigh-in, but I'm saying for me - I need the break to refocus and not get discouraged.

I have discovered about Weight Watchers that this plan really works - and it works best if you account for every bite of food you put in your mouth. When you inadvertantly (sp?) inadvertently? No clue how to spell that - anyway when you MINDLESSLY throw tiny quiches or choclates in your mouth, you aren't writing them down and then you are going over without realizing it. The other thing is that the things you choose don't stick to your body the same way. For instance, the apple I ate last night is digested differently than the entire bag of popcorn I ate the night before. (not the low fat kind of popcorn with a little bit of oil and parmasean, just straight from the bag Orville Redenbacher popcorn because I was nauseous and needed something quick.)

It's just different. So although I am exhausted today and Ethan did NOT sleep last night, I have decided today to focus on keeping something in my stomach and eating the RIGHT kinds of foods - not necessarily the quickest foods - and drinking tons of water even though my big jug is missing. I will get back on track in spite of the challenges I'm facing right now - pain being the most annoying of these.

sigh. No one said it would be easy, right?

Comments

[Shaun]

Courtney, I am happy that you are back, I have missed you. I am sorry that you have not been feeling well. I had my first weigh in yesterday and gained .6lbs. I cannot believe it! I cannot even eat all of my points in one day and never even touched my bonus points. My friend went over almost every day and ate all of her bonus points and she lost 4lbs. So frustrating. Now I have the flu so it is even harder for me to eat. I just keep reading over your old posts and see that you too had your tough moments and look at you now!

[Beth]

{{{{{BIG HUGS}}}}} Im so sorry you are not feeling well. I have TMJ and clinch my jaws, as well. It's always at it's worst when my children are babies, no sleep and stress....... I'm sorry Ethan has been sick. I'm the worst about eating good when I'm sleep deprived and dealing with a sick baby. It's no fun. I read that it's so much harder to lose weight when you are not getting atleast 7 hours of solid sleep at night. It makes you eat all day, because your body is trying to store energy. Keep keeping on......... The reward will be so sweet and know what else???? Our babies are still so young, so we are doing great. I never got my weight off with my other two this quick. I've been eating bad, cuz we are out of town on Spring Break. I'm sticking with my "stop eating by 6pm" thing but some bad things have entered my mouth. {{{smirk}}} Hope your headaches get better. :)
love
beth