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No WW on account of my grandma's funeral. I can't even bring myself to get on the scale because I sort of took the week off from WW and I fear I've done some damage.
ugh.
I need to remember that just because there's a funeral that doesn't mean I can throw everything I've learned out the window and eat whatever I want.
ugh.
I will do better. I'm still getting my mocha today somehow, but after that, I'll do better.
Courtney
I missed Weight Watchers this morning, opting instead to spend ridiculous money at the grocery store, where I've apparently been boycotting or something given the fact that we had absolutely no food in our house. I missed also because I'm still at the exact same spot I was at last week, which was down .6 from the week before.
point six.
sigh.
My leader said, "Hey, for being on vacation, that's REALLY good. I know she's right, but it's so hard not to be discouraged knowing it's almost June. Also knowing that I don't have time to do all the things I want to, let alone cook real food.
I have this thing against chicken too - unless it's cooked in the crock pot, I have a hard time eating it. I can stand it stir fried, but mostly when we do stir fry, I stock up on the veggies. Now, with summer coming and it's finally starting to warm up, I think we'll break out the grill, but it's soooo hard for me to want to cook when I have so many other projects going on.
So, I'm still pretty stuck. I'm down 18 pounds now, which is okay, but not where I wanted to be at this point.
If I'm honest with myself, I know a couple of the reasons why I'm stumped:
1. I have been completely avoiding water. I have no clue why - I really love water. If I have it on my desk, I drink it all day long. If I don't, I don't. Diet soda makes my stomach hurt, and yet, I still drink it. What is wrong with me? I mean, is it psychological or something?
2. This week, two days in a row I went to bed with at least ten points left. Yeah, that's what happens when you have no food in the house - for me, it means not eating anything. Now, because of my history with starvation (also known as anorexia) I think God has inserted a mechanism in my body that will not allow me to go unreasonable periods of time without food. When I don't eat, I get sick. And I do mean SICK. Then, I can't eat because I'm sick. It's a vicious, ridiculous cycle, and seriously - it's a good reminder that - duh! - I need to be eating regular food.
3. No groceries. I mean, that's a given. I have had no fruit or anything. It's a bad, bad scene. In my defense, how do you shop at Wal-mart with three kids when one is in a car seat that only fits in the big part of the cart? Where then, do you put food? I'm confused.
4. My 'free' day. I get 35 bonus points a week. Typically, I stockpile them and eat them all on one day. Thursday. that day, I allow myself the White Chocolate Mocha from Starbucks. I still get nonfat, no whip, but it's 7 points. My brain kicks into overdrive and I think "That was only seven. There's no way I'm going to use my normal 25 points, plus the 28 extra bonus points I have in one day" so I don't track. I think this is unwise. I think the points on a blizzard (even a small one) coupled with a cheeseburger and fries (which always - always make my stomach hurt) add up a lot quicker than I'm realizing.
So, that's the update in my saga. I am at a turning point right now. About to cross into a new 'decade' in my weight, if you will. I need to see the new decade next week or there's going to be issues. So, today is Thursday - my free day - but I'm going to track. Let's see if that helps.
:)
I can't remember... did I ever take a May picture? sigh. My days are all blurring together!
:) How are you doing? Still with me?
How long has it been?
Too long, I'm afraid. But I'm still on the plan, following it faithfully and hopefully seeing my numbers drop. Last week, I used my 'no weigh in pass.' I went to the meeting and learned all about throwing together quick meals that aren't going to trip you up. Seriously glad I was there. But after a week of food at the conference we went to, I just didn't want to get up there and see that I'd gained anything. (In truth, I weighed on my scale and I was the same, which is better than gaining... but a week with no loss in my book would just be sad, so I used the no weigh-in pass.)
So I'm sitting still at 17 down and needing the scale to budge this Thursday.
I am concentrating on REALLY recording my points. I'd gotten away from it sort of, and tried to do too much in my head. Now, I'm back to writing it all down and drinking tons of water. :) It's a good thing. I'm even craving the water, so that's good.
The weather's getting nicer so I'm thinking outdoor walks are well on their way. I cannot wait to get outside more! And I really can't wait to get a lawn. That's coming in the next couple of weeks.
Anyway, I'm still here, plugging away. Trying to avoid junk food and really relying on Smart Ones for lunches. It's just easier right now - and the joy of cooking isn't there so much when I'm busy.
How about you? Doing okay? Still with me? angry that I've abandoned you for too long?
Go ahead, I can take it! I've been a bad blogger! I know! I will try to do better! I promise!
Hope you're doing well!
