Officially insane.

What else besides insanity could convince me to move with less than a month left before I deliver this big old baby? We have officially moved this weekend and as I sit here typing this I am officially having a contraction. something about the strain of the move I think set some things in motion... though they're completely irregular, so I'm not too worried. I AM worried, however, because I scheduled a doctor's appointment for 9 a.m. tomorrow forgetting Adam has a staff meeting and can't watch Ethan while I'm there. I think if there was ever a week I NEEDED to go to the doctor, it's this one.

I also find it amusing that for just about every problem/concern/question I've had during this pregnancy, the response I get as to the course of action I should take is always the same: get off your feet and stay hydrated. I don't even have curtains in my house - how can I get off my feet??? ack! Waaaay too much to do, though, as my mom reminded me today... "It doesn't do much good to call the doctor if you're not going to do what they tell you to do."

Point taken.

I spent the evening sitting in a beanbag chair (our couch is back at the old house for showing purposes) watching "The Biggest Loser" which really, REALLY upset me tonight. I have never in my three years of watching it seen something so wrong. (Do you watch? Were you ticked?) I was almost as upset as when Phil was voted off last week. (He was so robbed.)

Anyway. 'nuff about that.

Along with the move has come some interesting things. First... this house makes different noises than our last house. But not unlike our last house, these noises DO keep me awake at night. Second, not having curtains is just about driving me insane. Third, after living in SUCH a clean house for nearly three months (I can say that - not because I am bragging, but because seriously.... it was imposed on me by the constant for sale sign in the front yard.) living in complete and utter chaos is something I really do not like. AND to make matters worse (I'm having another contraction - odd)... we lost our bedding in the move... including my wedge pillow which fits snugly under my belly to avoid the pain I so despise in my hips and back.

Fourth. And I hesitate to write this for fear it will conjure up images I really don't want it to, but bear with me for a second... this morning, I was in the shower. Our bathroom has a window in it now. It's bright in there - and although I nearly slipped on the shiny new tub floor, I also happened to notice my pregnant silouhette reflected against the back wall of the shower. Picture a vision of your body WITHOUT all the imperfections you most likely dwell on when you're looking at yourself in a brightly lit room and in an unforgiving mirror. As I turned to the side, I finally understood why some people really think the pregnant body is beautiful. Looking at myself, unable to see cellulite or stretch marks or anything else that I would typically shudder to see, I remembered that yes, I am in the process of growing a baby... a baby who will be here before I know it. A baby who I cannot wait to meet. Now that we are here, in our new house - even though the old one still sits on the market... it's like the excitement of this baby has settled in. And I have seen motherhood in a new light.

I guess it's easy to take this birthing thing for granted. I've been too busy to notice the pregnancy. Too busy to stop and take note...

I think it's just time to slow down.

Happy October 24. (Oh! That reminds me! October 24th is the day Adam and I went out for the first time. It wasn't really a 'date' because we just went to Perkins and had a coke and a hot tea... until 6 a.m. - literally - we talked the whole time...) but it ended up being a date because in that one night I knew more about him than anyone else in the world.... and we've been inseparable ever since.

:)

Comments

[Chantel]

Glad to hear that you got moved and are slowly getting settled...

I loved your description of your silhouette... it is always nice not having to worry about imperfections and just be able to enjoy the process of being pregnant...

chantel

[Debra]

OOh, take it easy with the move, it'll all be there after you have that baby. I so miss being pregnant, I have 3 and my baby will be 2 in december and I enjoyed being pregnant with her so much and I miss it. You need to scrap about the silhouette thing, your baby will appreciate that one day.

[Shaun]

I wish I lived close to you so I could help you out! Having moved this summer across the country, I too amd tired of living in Chaos. I did not have the added challenge of about to give birth. Hang in there and remember, it will all work out.
Good luck!
Shaun

[julie]

i look forward to your posts just about everyday.

strange i know.

but it's truly because i miss you so much!

i am so excited for you and the new house and i say it a lot, but i can't wait to see it and meet the new baby boy!

also, my sis and i are throwing a friend a baby shower and have stupidly decided to make the invitiations (which are way cute :p) and i was in Hobby Lobby and finally saw your book. i literally had to fight back tears because i was a proud friend. as i stood there in total and complete awe, flipping through each and every page of it, i couldn't help but think over and over...i know her. and she is a VERY good friend of mine who is EXTREMELY talented and uses her gift to glorify God. that definately can't be said of everyone.

well, i hope your doctor's appointment went well and baby walsh is coming soon!

love you!

[rosie]

Congrats on the move! It sounds exciting and exhausting at the same time. I moved twice while pregnant (with two different kids, thankfully) and it's tough every time. Just a thought for your windows, at home depot, they sell disposable blinds that are paper-they use them a lot in model homes and houses that are for sale. They are super cheap and just stick to the top of the window. not beautiful, but certainly give a little privacy while you are finding curtains

[Bridgette Mehlig]

Courtney,
I just wanted to let you know that I LOVE YOU ! I mean you are such an amazing, fun and creative person. - : ) And you're my role model. Have a great day and I will be praying for you. See you tomorrow.! - : )