I've yet to give any thought to my New Year's resolutions. I mean, there's things I want to accomplish this year--goals I need to set for myself, but in terms of actual "I resolve" statements, I haven't quite mustered the courage to sit down and think about those.
I think it's because, if I'm honest, 2009 was kind of a rotten year for me. Really rotten. I'd rather forget big chunks of it than sit and replay them over and over in my head. But the hard thing is that the ringing of the clock at midnight on January 1st didn't give me exactly a clean slate. I mean, whatever you're dealing with on December 31st doesn't just magically fix itself on January 1st. It doesn't work that way.
So, of course I have typical resolutions--eat better, get healthy, etc. etc. But truly right now all I'm focusing on is moving forward. Dealing with the old so I can embrace the new.
I've seen a lot of people doing photo a day type blogs. I pretty much take a photo everyday, but usually they aren't pretty and artsy. That probably won't change, let's be honest. But maybe I'll try starting my blog off with some random photo that represents where I am... that one up there...the bottom of a bowl of homemade vegetable soup.
Let's call it "Nourish Yourself."
I had a great conversation with a dear, dear friend last night. Yes, I said "dear friend." And no, I'm not an old lady.
The conversation led us to women and how we so often neglect ourselves. We forget to take care of ourselves because we spend so much time caring for other people. but I'm not just talking physically. It's everything--spiritually, emotionally...and my biggie...creatively. You have to nurture yourself if you hope to have any kind of lasting impact on any little (and big) people in your life. It's just the way it goes.
But we make it the last priority. Bottom of the totem pole. I'll get to that later.
We set up an art night here locally. I don't know what it'll turn into, but it's a night for creative people to come together and be creative. To drink coffee and paint or write or sculpt or sketch. A night to put aside the to-do list and nurture the inner artist. Aren't YOU worth investing in?
I think so.
Anyway. It's on my mind a lot and will probably creep its way into my resolutions. I'm anxious to see where that takes me. But I won't do them until I'm in a reflective mood.
For now, I'll show you my latest domestic blunder. First of all, let me just say that my husband is a god-send. Last night he and I brainstormed some important writing stuff (this is one creative mastermind, let me just tell you) and he managed to help get me over a major writing block... love him for that. but I also love him because he helps me. He folds clothes and helps make lunches...all the things that are more fun with a partner.
But...god love him...whenever he helps, I know I'm gonna find something like this a couple of hours later:
Besides, I can hardly criticize when Adam had to scour the fridge for the jelly...only to find it here:
Sometimes my brain doesn't accompany me on my adventures.
I am a little closer to having a plan for our toy room. I don't have a color yet, but I do have a map. These aren't the actual pictures that I'm using... but you get the idea:
I'm sort of a nutcase about sketching things out in Photoshop, but it really helps me because I'm so visual. I thought of adding some shelves because the smaller ones are harder to hang. One of those Olivia's isn't gonna make the final cut either because I found an adorable Curious George that is so cute. I'm hoping my brilliant husband will hang these today, though when he sees that peanut butter picture he might refuse.
So, little by little....