Yesterday was a hard day from the start. I woke up late, felt frazzled and discovered I should've done things differently last week to avoid it.
I may've collapsed completely were it not for my husband's insistence the day before that we get out of the house and enjoy this beautiful weather. (There's a pattern here of him forcing me outside and me realizing how good it is.)
The only bad thing was I forgot the card for my camera and only had my phone. I'm telling you, no phone camera can do justice to the beauty of a Colorado fall...
We headed up into the mountains to a park hidden off the side of the road and even I'll admit, it was much needed and well worth it.
Right when we got there, Adam said "let's just let the kids go explore."
And then promptly yelled "Sam, get back here."
He was up to no good.
It's amazing to me that after lamenting my church issues only Friday, I could get out to a place where I'm sure God spends most of his days...
And I promise Ethan is not wearing short pants...
Though you can't tell it in this photo.
I think going through this little quandry has been good for me. It's taught me that it's time to move on. It's time to stop trying to live my life out of obligation, but to tap into the God who made me...and discover what he wants for my life.
Which I'm convinced includes a community of people...though I'm not convinced we've found the right one. I haven't abandoned my beliefs that church is important and good and valid...I'm simply struggling to find where we belong...and I know it's important to keep pushing until we find it.
Some days, I'm just thankful I can hear the whisper of God's voice in the changing leaves of the Colorado aspens.
And I find myself overwhelmed with gratitude that Colorado trees DO change color... and they're just as beautiful as the trees in Illinois.
I want to thank you for the emails, calls and texts of encouragement over my last post... knowing that I'm not alone has been hugely helpful...
So let me encourage you now, in the way you've encouraged me... to keep pushing until you find your spot. If you're searching, like we are, it's out there...and it's important to move past the past to discover what God has for us in the future...
Later this week, I'm going to share a post from someone who helped me shift my perspective on the whole matter...come back for more encouraging words...
And have a wonderful Tuesday!
