There's something about the beginning of something. Starting a new story. The blank canvas of a new art piece. A new home renovation project.
The beginning is so shiny, isn't it? You can hardly wait to find out what's going to happen. And that newness pushes you through so much.
But other times, the beginning can be terrifying. Traipsing out into the unknown...discovering that it's not safe 100% of the time. Embracing the risk. Being afraid. Doing it anyway.
I tend to be the kind of person who loves big ideas. In certain ways I also love details...but mostly I love big ideas. And when I get big ideas, I can't sleep until I begin. And yet... lately, it's the first step I can't seem to take.
I analyze. Over analyze. I come up with a plan. Then another one that I'm sure is better. Then I get another big idea and wonder if that's a better way to go... I'm losing the forest for the trees, or whatever that saying is...
The truth is, starting something new is terrifying. At least when it requires you to take a step of faith...And in all that planning and wondering and worrying...you have to figure out which voices are the right ones to listen to.
So, how do you jump into the deep end without a life vest? Especially when you aren't a risk-taker by nature? What do you do when the fear squeezes your throat and you can't breathe?
Can you push through? Can you stop comparing your beginning to someone else's middle?
It's a process. I'm working on it...and trying to be gentle with myself while I do.
What is it you're jumping into right now? What's keeping you from taking that first step?