It's been a long time, blog world.
People keep asking me if I've abandoned my blog. I don't know what to say. I guess I sort of did.
I've been traveling on a road I'm still not quite ready to talk about, and to be honest, I felt that if I were to try and blog through it, it would be messy and not genuine. I don't have any interest in being the opposite of authentic. In my world, transparency matters. Truth matters.
But sometimes we live in the clouds, covered with a hazy fog where transparency isn't an option. And that's where I've been.
I'm starting to see them part though. I'm starting to feel hope return, the kind of hope that bubbles inside you like a geyser, just waiting for its chance to shoot out of the ground. The kind of hope that's been missing for several weeks now.
So I'm clinging to it. I'm making myself a prisoner of it. I'm chaining myself to Hope and focusing on the good. What other choice do I have, really?
In spite of the confusion that's been following me around for several weeks, I do feel God starting to make sense of things. Giving me courage that wasn't there before. Setting us up for something new and different. And while I prayed at the beginning of the year that we could avoid any more change for awhile, sometimes the answers to our prayers don't come in the way we want or expect.
And I guess that takes a little getting used to.
As for what I've been up to, mostly directing our musical, Grimm.
Adam and I wrote this one and we're directing it here in Rockford. it opens Friday and if you're local, you should come see it this or next weekend. The kids are absolutely incredible, and assuming the stars align and all things technical begin to work together in harmony, you are in for one fun show.
It's funny, I've recently been reminded there always seem to be three constants in our life: God, Kids and the performing arts.
Sometimes I think it helps to boil things down to what really matters. When you lose your focus, it's the only way things become clear again. These kids (and their parents) mean the world to us and theatre is just the connection point. Mostly I love to see them start to believe in themselves, to build that ever-fleeting self confidence that may just stay with them as they grow up.
Anyway. watching our show come to life like this, with these kids, in this moment...it's something I'll never forget.
In spite of this madness, I'm still hoping to have art classes this month. I've just announced them...
I'm especially excited about Girl's Art Night Out this month because I've never done a huge canvas before, but this one is pretty big!
Come play with paint!